in my quest to find myself (i know that sounds kinda silly- but that is what it is)...i find myself feeling empty....almost to the point of aching.
i know i have an inherent submissive trait that apparently is now rearing its ugly head...i have the need, the desire to find the "one" to submit to...i cannot submit to anyone...but as some of my blog friends have said...the "one" is out there for me to find...and once i find him, i will be happy. in the meantime, i have to figure out how to deal with the thoughts going through my head and the feelings going through my body.
when i think of submitting to the one...i can feel my arousal build up within...leaving me breathless and horny beyond belief...and then i get frustrated because i am not able to do anything about my arousal. i can push those feelings aside as i have been ignoring my physical needs for some time.
but, what i cannot push away is the pain or ache within my very soul...something is missing....something that would make me complete...something that needs to be a part of my life because it is inherently a part of me. i am submissive...i need to submit. that much i know. the rest i am still figuring out.
while figuring this out, i found this......and loved it. i want to be wrapped up like this one day....please check out this link:
http://leathernroses.com/poems/tjdragon.htm
Monday, February 26, 2007
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You will find your master just be patient. Quite often it is when we stop looking that the perfect partner walks in the room. :)
Suzie has a very valid point. The paradox is the harder we try the more we fail; it is only when we let go and let things unfold naturally do we find what we are looking for.
i understand the need to be patient. and, i am trying. it is just difficult to be patient when this comes bubbling up to the surface.
Patience is as good a virtue as submission Pixie.
I certainly understand your need to find the one who will fulfill your desires! But it's so difficult to do that when even you're not sure what the desires are. You need someone to go exploring with you, and take the dominant role as far as you dream he could go.
do you know who the 'one' is pixie?
george-
i completely understand...just hard to be patient at times.
cherrie-
know anyone like that? currently, i am open in my desires...would like someone to help me explore.
cp-
i do not know...
It's not any easier being a Dom looking for a sub.
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